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I can't stand this.

For those of you who don't konw. I am taking pain pills and muscle relaxers for back strain. I got behind in my housework Sunday because I was hurt, and then yesterday I was at the doctors. Today I have been working very hard to just push through it and get caught up.

Long story short, MrG offered to iron while I did the folding and putting away, and keeping the wash going. He ironed his own shirt and pants for work tonight. Nothing else. SO I am sitting in the living room wiith laundry piled around me. I have to get it put away. The rest of the things I was trying to do are mostly done..

But to push through all of this, I keep taking more and more of the meds. I'm allowed 3 muscle relaxers and six pain pills during the day, I started with half of each because I have such a low tolerance for them. Now, I have taken two of each, and I am high. I am so high I can't feel my face, but my back is still spasming, and I can't bring myself to get up and put this stuff away.

I hate feeling like this. It's one thing to choose to be high. I smoked my share of pot back in the day, and it was nice. But it was planned. I had nothing going on, nothing else to do. No kids. I hate it, i can't focus on anything. I have to be extremely careful with my writing. I only know how many meds I have taken because I have the bottles sitting on a pad of paper with a pen on top so I will remember to write it down so I won't overdose myself.

Last night it took forever to make dinner because I couldn't think. It was easy, precooked stuff, but I couldn't remember what I was doing, kept wandering off. Forgetting, and burning the chicken. I hate feeling this way.

I haven't been online much because I can't read things very well, I can't concentrate.

I just wish I could take a little and rest, no work, no kids to deal with, just to be able to put on some stupid tv show and rest for two days so that I can get back to business as usual.

So now, I have three hours left before I can put the kids down for bed. I have to make food, get them ready for bed and pick the house up. Still have a load in the wash and in the dryer. And I'm sitting down with my numb head and oh so sore back.

Maybe tomorrow will be better.

My mood: very high

Posted by onceandfutureglow at 16:30 on November 3rd, 2009 at 4:30PM

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karumbey	Posted on 04:35PM on Nov 3rd, 2009 Wish I lived close by, I would come by and help a bit. Plus its no fun being high and doing housework. Boo!
destry	Posted on 04:36PM on Nov 3rd, 2009 tell that husband of yours to help you out! He should see that a)you are in pain b)you are so out of it you can't function very well. Order a pizza for dinner, pop a movie on for the kiddies, and relax. The laundry can wait!! Take care of yourself first. xoxo
frito414	Posted on 04:40PM on Nov 3rd, 2009 Awww I wish there was a way a bunch of your friends could help you. PLEASE be careful with the meds...maybe you can't finish it all. Once and future glow I'm at a loss for any words that would truly help....HUG I hope your back feels much better soon! :)
Lilt	Posted on 04:40PM on Nov 3rd, 2009 Destry is correct. If you are going to be buzzed, might as well enjoy it. Watch a good movie! **and I love that song**
Scoobs57	Posted on 04:47PM on Nov 3rd, 2009 I'd be there in about two seconds if I could. I LOVE spouses who only take care of themselves. >:-{ I am with Des, Pizza and movies on the menus. Pushing through it won't help your back.
newdaydogEP	Posted on 05:07PM on Nov 3rd, 2009 Okay so I'm not one to comment on your stories normally (I do read them) but I have to throw my two cents in: Sept 4 I got slammed by a wave and injured my neck and back. Yep flexaril, timed release flexaril, and pain pills to let me move. But the drugs won't do it if you "push through". Now two months later after weeks of 3x a week PT I'm getting better but if I'd ignored it and tried to keep up with my "obligations" I'd still be in major pain. Hubby needs to really step up. If not, declare a strike and let yourself heal. No one will starve to death.
onceandfutureglow	Posted on 05:19PM on Nov 3rd, 2009 Thank you guys. i know that i'm past my limit for the evening. i have gotten the laundry up. had to, because i already expended the energy to fold/iron it. spouse gone to work. I have to feed the kids. and i'm done for the day. i feel like that , NDD. That I'm feeling pain with this much dope tells me i'm doing myself probably more harm than good. ii need to just two hours now and they're in bed :) (and I'm SOOOO for finding an EP transport center (BEAM ME UP EPJAKE!!) so that we could go help each other out when ******* spouses don't do their jobs. :(
Escapetonowhere	Posted on 06:09PM on Nov 3rd, 2009 Peace and rest to ya' futureglow' I have my own back problem's,I know where your comin' from... Take Care
Myonis108	Posted on 06:18PM on Nov 3rd, 2009 No way would I be doing what you're doing. Let the laundry go. Life will continue without home cooked meals and ocean fresh t-shirts. Heck, sit back and soak up the buzz! I hope the back stops hurting. Back pain is the worst.
onceandfutureglow	Posted on 06:28PM on Nov 3rd, 2009 Thanks for reading my whiny post. :-) I have called in the reinforcements. My dad's bringing fast food home to us. When they're asleep, Im taking my 3rd flexaril for the day, and going to actually rest.
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